note (age 18) "what is love"

What is love…

• It’s staying up late talking all night then suffering trying to stay awake in class the next day.
• It’s the ability to talk forever and never get bored.
• It’s smiling when he’s around and having no logical reason as to why.
• It’s wearing his clothes, not because you’re cold, but because they make you feel like he’s there when he’s not.
• It’s watching a movie with his arm around you and your hand in his.
• It’s when he’s more interesting than the movie playing in the theater.
• It’s when you think back to the beginning and laugh at yourself for being so shy.
• It’s realizing that he’s the only one who can make you smile the way he does.
• It’s the way your name sounds so much better when he says it.
• It’s when he compliments you on what you’re wearing and you silently vow to wear it more often.
• It’s when you see yourself all over his web page and he doesn’t care if his friends tease him.
• It’s when you can’t imagine how you lived without him for so long.
• It’s when any other relationship you’ve had becomes completely insignificant.
• It’s when he can’t stand to see you cry.
• It’s when you worry about each other every second that you’re not together.
• It’s when you’re jealous but it passes because you trust him to not hurt you.
• It’s when you turn on your I-pod and play a song that reminds you of him.
• It’s how you feel when he calls you beautiful or his princess.
• It’s when you purposely wear his favorite color to see if he’ll notice.
• It’s when you go out together and realize your outfits match completely by accident.
• It’s the feeling you get when you haven’t seen him in a while and when you see him you can’t help but run and throw your arms around him.
• It’s when he’s the star of all your dreams.
• It’s when you know there’s always the risk of it not lasting, but you just can’t help but put all your hope and trust into believing it will.
• It’s when it hurts to know he ever loved anyone else.
• It’s when the thought of being with anyone else doesn’t even cross your mind.
• It’s when you can’t help but laugh when you realize that when we first met we would have never thought we’d fall in love.
• It’s how you feel when he tells you that you’ve made him a better person.
• It’s when you think of him and smile and everyone on the train looks at you like you’re crazy but you don’t care.
• It’s when you’re happy simply because he’s happy.
• It’s when you try to take him places you know he’ll like just to see the expressions on his face.
• It’s when you realize that you used to hate public affection but now that you’re with him the rest of the world doesn’t matter.
• It’s when you never want to let him go…ever
• It’s when you miss him and you haven’t even parted yet
• It’s when you never get tired of hearing his voice.
• It’s when you hear his name and smile because you know he’s yours.
• It’s telling him every day, any time, anyhow, anywhere, that you love him.
• It’s being corny but really meaning it.
• It’s when, not only does he tell you you’re beautiful, but he actually makes you feel beautiful.
• It’s when, not only is he your bf, but he’s suddenly your best friend.
• It’s when you don’t care if anyone accepts that you’re together, because you have each other and that’s all that matters.
• It’s the sudden urge to be creative and make or write him something that will make him smile.
• It’s when your face hurts from smiling too much.
• It’s waking up to a text message from him.

song (age 18) "why cant we stop the world"

Why cant we stop the world
So I’d just be with you
Shut out all our problems
Hold to what is true
We could stay like this forever
Just lying in your bed
Just tell me, tell me baby
What’s in your head
Cuz I can’t stand the silence
When I know that something’s wrong
That look always gives you away
Though you’re trying to be strong
I wish there was something
I could say
To make those feelings
Go away
So I’ll be your shoulder to lean on
When things get out of hand
Standing right beside you
Trying to understand
Cuz even though it’s you in pain
I’m the one who’ll cry
Cuz its killing me to see you hurt
And these feelings will never die
Why cant we stop the world
So I’d just be with you
Shut out all our problems
Hold to what is true
We could stay like this forever
Just lying in your bed
Just tell me, tell me baby
What’s in your head
The music’s playing softly
Just loud enough to hear
Cherishing the silence
Holding you so near
I’ll kiss your bad thoughts away
Comfort you through the night
Cuz baby, baby, baby,
It’ll be alright
So let’s just stop the world
So I can be with you
Shut out all our problems
Hold to what is true
We’ll stay like this forever
Just lying in your bed
Till we finally fall asleep…
With nothing left unsaid

poem (age 18)

Lately I’ve found myself dreaming
In a world where nothing’s wrong
Doing what I feel is right
No matter who it is I harm
Ten seconds on the clock
And you’re walking through the door
I get shy just looking at you
And my eyes drop to the floor
We can’t risk speaking
Or risk being too close
For all their eyes are watching
When I want you near the most
Holding hands in the dark
As pictures flash across the screen
I rest my head on your shoulder
Not caring about being seen
The theater could have disappeared
And faded into the night
And I would have stayed in that moment
Not leaving without a fight
Now floating on the Hudson
Is the proof that we were there
Throwing wishes to the waves
In the frigid winter air
I shivered in your arms
Silently staring at the sky
No words were needed
With the seconds ticking by
The night slowly grew colder
As the snow began to fall
Tightly grasping the moment
Not wanting to leave at all
Feelings grew so quickly
Faster than I could blink
So when u asked the question
I didn’t have to think
Wandering the city together
Adoring the smile on your face
Loving being by your side
A feeling nothing can replace
Another moment imprinted
Inside a spinning room
Stopping time in its place
Not wanting to resume
Fears washed away
As we touched the sky
Reaching the top of the world
Kissing the ground goodbye
I could have stayed up there forever
Lying silently by your side
No one can take that moment from us
Not even if they tried
And though this is a bumpy path
And our friends don’t understand
I’ll follow you to the end of the world
If you promise to hold my hand

poem (age 18)

Just a frail little girl

With too big of a heart

A creative mind

And a terrible start

Motherly by nature

Peace keeper at home

Lost in her thoughts

Writing a poem

She crys so easily

She trys to stay strong

Forever the role model

Can never do wrong

Cuts easily hidden

Under her sleeve

She cant be imperfect

So they’ll never see

Nightmares every night

Dreams far away

Parents come and go

She knows they’ll never stay

Imagining a better world

Cuz in this one shes lost

Protects her sisters

At any cost

Traumatized by love

Princes are hard to come by

Never expected him to be perfect

At least thought he’d try

Sometimes shes loud

Others shes shy

Forever a dreamer

Always asking why

Always willing to love

Yet always scared of the pain

Never ready for the downfall

Of the love that keeps her sane

Moody till the day she dies

Feelings easily hurt

Sarcastic and defensive

Not much of a flirt

Doesn’t drink

Nor does she do drugs

Not much to dance or party

Loves to get hugs

Hates the way she looks

Forever insecure

Refuses to grow up

Pretty immature

Just wants someone to love her

For all that she is

Find someone who needs her

And forever be his

Perfection isn’t real

But she’ll see it in his eyes

That to him shes perfect

No need for goodbyes

Stubbornly she waits

For love to fall from the sky

Its not something you should have to fight for

So she shouldn’t have to try