Poem (age 13)

i know i have a heart
because i feel it breaking
i know i have a mind
because i feel it aching
i know that i have eyes
because i can feel them crying
and i know i have a soul
because i feel it dying
i feel the earth beneith me
i see the sky above me
i smell the air around me
i just want someone to love me
i laugh a half hearted laugh
cry a half hearted cry
while my heart beats half heartedly
as it will til the day i die
i know theres some who love me
but i need more than they can give
my heart seems to give up a little more each day
how much longer will i live?
i watched as the worst happened
watched my life crumble before my eyes
sadly i was the only one who noticed
as my soul little by little dies
and i have to hold back a tear
every second of every day
listening to people ask whats wrong
and not knowing what to say
and my mind is aching
for i no longer know what to do
and i cant make it go away
pressure sticks to me like glue
my heart slows down more and more
cuz its giving up the fight
its the only part of my body that has sence
every other part pretends everythings alright
but im not alright
i probably never will be again
soon ill get used to the pain
the pain my only friend
I wish someone could see the pain im in
i wish they would give me the help i need
wish they could help me heal my wounds
after they see how i bleed
some unsuccessful people have tried
to help me in my time of need
because they saw my pain
heard my silent plead
and to this day i wish they would have understood me
seen the truth through my lie
but they didnt so they left
left me there to die
i toss and turn in bed at night
thinking about how scared i am of death
and i cry thinking about how it must feel
to know youre about to take your last breath
i sit there in the darkness
swimming through my pool of tears
letting a few more fill it up
as ive done over the years
until i finally fall asleep
and slip into another nightmare
but i live one every day
so its really no big scare
i awaken in the morning
force a smile on my face
take a look in the mirror
and tell my reflection its a disgrace
my head resumes its pounding
tears threaten to hit the floor
a bit of my soul dies away
and my heart tears a little more